The Zude summer special

Brent Antonello & Adam Senn.

Well for me it actually was a Zude summer special since I don't really care for the whole thing, even though I did watch the whole episode this time! It is well made, but basket ball don't really do it for me... But I was NOT disappointed! What an episode! The whole internet is buzzing about the shower scene, which was really good (not as good as DeRo's of course) but the image above is from my favourite scene! How cute they are! And I love that Zero is so affectional now days, I really do! But I just have to say that everything is almost too good right now. Zero is the most loveable guy ever who show's his love fore Jude in public like all the time now and Jelena just gives the responsibility of everything to everyone just like that! I think that it's either going to go really bad soon or this actually was the end of Hit the Floor. I certainly hope not. I want more Zude. And I want a wedding. If the series continues I think it will be.

Happy Birthday To Me!

Look what my wonderful faghag friend gave me for my birthday! All my favourite gays at once! Fervid, Stendan, DeRo, Lalle, Chrolli and McHay! Thank you very much! I love them all.

Ingo bist schwul?

André Dietz aka Ingo Zadek.

Oh how would I have liked that! I so would like if Ingo was gy! Or at least bisexual. I never really liked Ingo with Bea. I liked Bea with Ben and I liked Ingo with Annette. But Annette died so... BUT, if Ingo turned out to swing that way, it would be a perfect opportunity for Deniz (Igor Dolgatschew) to come out of the closet again! After Roman (Dennis Grabosch) died Deniz have been straight, straight and straight and his girlfriends have been really boring! But I can actually see Denis and Ingo together! I would rather see Ingo with Roman but he died so that is not an option. So, if you won't give Deniz to Ingo, please give him another man! I think we do need some boy-on-boy action again in Allez Was Zählt!

Nothing going on

The Germans have really made the most memorable gay characters in their soaps. I mean, who doesn't love Chrolli, Joscka, DeRo och Cenny? But what are they doing right now? I really don't understand. In the years 2007-2010-ish, there were six regular gay(ish) characters in German soaps. There were Olli and Christian in Verbotene Liebe, Lenny and Carsten in Gute Zeiten, Schlechte Zeiten and there were Roman and Deniz in Alles Was Zählt. How many are there now? None!

Igor Dolgatschew as Deniz Öztürk.

Ok, that was kind of a lie. There har three bisexual characters. Deniz is still a part of Alles Was Zählt, but since Roman died he has just dated women. And not very nice women either. Please Deniz, step back outside of the wardrobe! Or at least have some juicy dreams about Roman!

Mickey Hardt as Dr. Jo Helmke.

And when Verbotene Liebe stopped being an every day soap (or at least an every second day soap) and became a once a week soap, Oliver Sabel left the series as well. I don't know if he did it by free choice or if the writers wanted something else of the show, but I do know that Olli was a very very popular character so they shouldn't have wanted for him to go. But Olli was never really interesting enough without Christian... But, he had a fling with Dr. Jo Helmke, and Jo is still a regular on the show But I haven't really watched the show since Christian left and Dr. Jo Helmke is not a favourite character in any way. I don't even think it's possible to follow his storyline on youtube. And that says enough!

Timothy Boldt who plays Ringo Beckmann.

And of course, there's Ringo Beckmann in Unter Uns. I do love Ringo, and Timothy Boldt hos plays him in the show Unter Uns, but it seems like the character is just part of really boring storylines. Storylines with no male love interests, that is. He dated Yannick and then he wanted to date Aaron (even though I guess he never admitted that to himself) and then there has just been girls. So I don love Ringo but I don't love Unter Uns. I think it's a boring series. It's a shame, because it could have been really interesting with Ringo being a villain and all. But Hollyoaks are good at that. Maybe they could borrow him?

Top three kissers

Ok, there are some good kissers. There are some kissers that are like "heh". There are some bad kissers... But let's concentrate on the real good kissers! Here are my to three:

Third place: Stendan - Hollyoaks

Kieron Richardson as Ste Hay and Emmett J. Scanlan as Brendan Brady.

There is really nothing to complain about in the Stendan kissing. There is just so much in them. It's mostly Emmett's effort. Well, passion and a great connection between the actors. I couldn't ask for more.


Second place: DeRo - Alles Was Zählt

Igor Dolgatschew as Deniz Özrürk and Dennis Grabosch as Roman Wild.

Ok, here is another couple with great connection. It is very obvious that the actors really like eachother. And DeRo has not only given us some of the greatest soap kisses ever, they have also given us the most steaming sex scene ever! I have to get back on that. In the picture you can se the guys first on screen kiss. And even Roman took Deniz by surprice, it was amazing! It's a real shame there won't be any more DeRo kisses...


And the winner: Chrolli - Verbotene Liebe

Thore Schölermann as Christian Mann and Jo Weil as Oliver Sabel.

Even though I am more of a DeRo-fan than a Chrolli-fan (but it is a close call), I have to say that there is actually no competition about the first place. Chrolli are, and will always be, te best kissers! And they will deliver us the best kisses. The picture shows us the kiss from my favourite scene that I have blogged about before and it is just so amazing! I don't know what they are doing, but there is something that just clicks. Me and my fiancé aren't even kissing that passionate, and I don't think we ever have. But here is a couple of actors that I know for a fact that they are good friends in private and that they do spend a lot of time together. And I really can't figure out why they don't bring Christian back now that Verbotene Liebe will come to an end... But if you would want to see the best Chrolli kiss ever, at least in my opinion, watch below:

Ok, there is no subtitles, but you don't need them. Just sit back and enjoy!

Ship names

There's a phenomenon called ship names. Of course, they are the combined names of OTP's, like Johnlock (John and Serlock from Sherlock), Brangelina (Brad and Angelina) and Matlingsworth (Maya Matlin and Miles Hollingsworth from Degrassi). The last couple I certainly do not ship, but you know all about that... There are some really good shipnames amongst the fictional gays. Some of the just makes perfectly sense.

Larias.

Larias (Lari and Elias from Salatut Elämät), Fervid (Fer and David from Física o Química) and Chrolli (Christian and Olli from Verbotene Liebe) are some really good examples. And it is very easy to be together with John Paul in Hollyoaks, because his lastname is McQueen, and everything works with a Mc; McHay, McCarter, MacDean, it just makes sense!

Cenny.

Some of the are not that great, but they work. Cenny (Carsten and Lenny from Gute Zeiten, Schlechte Zeiten), DeRo (Deniz and Roman from Alles Was Zählt) and WilSon (Will and Sonny from Days of our lives) are examples. I mean, Wilson is a real name. The current actor who plays Will actually has that as a surname, Guy Wilson. And he plays Will! You could get confused by less.

Aarson.

But. There really are som ship names that are horrible! Aarson is one. Aaron references to Aaron and Jackson in Emmerdale. And Aarson really sounds like an ass' son. Don't like it. And today I got to know that the official ship name of Lari and Kalle of Salatut Elämät is Lalle. Lalle?! That sounds rediculous. At least in my Swedish ears. But they couldn't be called Kari, because Kari is the homophobic relative of Elias That certainly wouldn't do. So I guess we're stuck with Lalle. But I for one would prefer Laitänen och Väänela instead. But I don't get to choose so... And they are not that perfect either... Is there some correlation between bad ship names and failed relationships you think?

Some New Years specials

There have been som nice New Years episodes through the years. Not all soaps are on a break over Christmas, New Years and summer, thank gods. Here are some of my favourites.

Syed, Amira and Christian.

First of all we have the New Years kiss between Christian and Syed (Eastenders) from 2009. There are just rubbish pictures (even my own screenshots) so you'll have to settle with one of Syed kissing Amira instead, while Christian is watching. Awful. But the Chryed kiss was great! Just before the Masood wedding Christian (John Partridge) leaves Walford because of a broken heart, but comes home just for the midnight to give Syed (Marc Elliott) a kiss. It is so romantic, and there is so much pain. I love it!

Tom & Ulli.

Another favourite is actually from the millennium when Tom and Ulli (Verbotene Liebe) got together. And yet another rubbish picture. Tom (Kay Böger) and Ulli (Andreas Stenschke) had been tangled here and there for a while (well, Ulli had a girlfriend, of course) but in New Years eve Ulli finally had the guts to tell Tom his true feelings and from there there was no turning back. The coupled shared a cozy moment in front of the fireplace, and it is a classical scene indeed. To watch it follow the link.

Deniz and Roman on New Years eve.

The Germans know how to do it. Another cute New Years kiss is actually one of DeRo's (Alles Was Zählt) cutest. And yay, a great picture! Well, all of their kisses were cute. But this was special. It was playful and happy, which was not the case of their relationship at this time. Roman (Dennis Grabosch) was unemployed and Deniz (Igor Dolgatschew) was a model. But it was a happy time if you compare to what was to come... And there was also another New Years eve when Deniz dpent it with Vanessa instead of Roman but let's not talk about that!

Those were my favourites. And they were only three! So here is a bonus. Will and Sonny (Days of our lives) from last New Years eve.

Will (Chandler Massey) and Sonny (Freddie Smith).

I need to collect some more favourites I think... Any suggestions?

G&T webserie

I found something new. And something very addictive. I was a bit in the blues after watching to great lovestories end in disaster, that is Stendan (jail for life) and DeRo (death by brain tumour) and didn't really feel like watching any of stories that I have to catch up in (McCarter, Olli or Johnny) so I wanted something new. Something without several hundreds of episodes. I knew that I had seen something about a webseries and surfed in to the G&T-channel. I ploughed through it in a flash and fell absolutely in love!

Matteo Rocchi and Francesco D'Alessio.

G&T webserie is an Italian series produced for the web that has two seasons today. Ok, my Italian is non-existent, and about there is to read about the series is in Italian and google translate cannot always do the job, but to me it seems like the guys who plays the main charaters, Francesco D'Alessio and Matteo Rocchi, does about it all. They both starr in it, writes the screenplay, directs it and about all the crew including the cast are holding cameras, screens, lighting, you name it! I love it!

Matteo Rocchi as Tommaso & Francesco D'Alessia as Giulio.

Ok, the series is about Tommaso (Matteo Rocchi) and Giulio (Francesco D'Alessia), two best friends who once shared a passionate snog in the bathroom of a student club. After that they didn't see each other for five years because of some closety issues from Tommaso. We get in to the action when their roads crosses again and there are sparks! I don't wanna spoil it for you because I really recommend that you watch it! Or I might even demand you to watch it because it is absolutely amazing! This kind of project with a small budget where everyones involved really is involved, you just have to support! The actors are great, the footage is very beautiful, the plot is very good, the props and costumes are very suitable, the dialogue, script, everything, breathes love! Please tune in to G&T webserie on youtube and let me know what you think! A little warning though, the english subtitles in season 1 is quite poor, but you will get the main contents. It is very well worth watching!

Violence in our minds

Ok, there is something with soap operas, violence and gay relationships. Straight relationships to I guess, but there is a significance in gay once, I think. The classical scenario is that a gay character is so deep into the closet that he can't handle the fact that he is attracted to another man that he uses violence to suppress both his and the other gay characters feelings. There are lots of examples of that.

Amy interrupts a tense moment between Brendan and Ste.

The most obvious example of this is the relationship/non-relationship between Ste Hay (Kieron Richardson) and Brendan Brady (Emmett J. Scanlan). This seems to be the first example of domestic violence in a gay relationship in a british soap opera. The actors stated that they were very proud of the storyline, and I do think that it is avery important matter to portrait. In the beginning of the Stendan journey, Brendan handled it by smacking Ste up about every second time they got together. Ste tried to stop loving Brendan and borke it off with him several times, but always ended up in Brendans arms in the end. In time, Brendan did start to handle his aggression and dealt with it and stopped smacking Ste up, and they started an sort of equal relationship, but even then he smacked Ste when he was haunted and pressured, a couple of times. Ste of course forgave him. Again and again. And Stendan is a very very popular couple. Even though their relationship was dashed by a little violence.

Ringo beating Yannick almost to death,

Another homophobic character very deep down into the closet is Ringo Beckmann  (Timothy Boldt) from Unter Uns. His self-disgust knew no bounds when he almost hit his fling Yannick Benhöfer (Eric Stehfest) almost to death, just because he wanted to have a proper relationship with him. Ringo on the other hand, repented of course, and tried to get Yannick back. But thankfully, Yannick never forgave him andleft the series just some episodes after the abuse. It would have been to unreal if he would have forgiven him, I think.

Lenny and Carsten beating eachother up before some snogging.

Well, another storyline with a lining of violence is the Cenny one. Carsten Reimann (Felix Isenbügel) and Lenny Cöster (Alexander Becht) liked beating both eachother and others up. When they were not fighting with other gangs, they were trying to resist eachother and did that with som beatings. In the end, Lenny even participated in an assault of Carsten, where they actually both were so damaged they ended up in hospital. Lenny, of course, changed his mind in the last moment and tried to stop the gang from beating Carsten up. Carsten had a hard time forgiving Lenny, but because he loved him so much, he finally did. And they live happily ever after.

Deniz and Roman forgot it all.

There are some similarities between the Cenny and the DeRo storylines. Just as Lenny knew that the gang was going to beat up Carsten, Deniz Öztürk (Igor Dolgatschev) knew that his hockey team mates was going to beat up Roman Wild (Dennis Grabosch). The homophobic hockeyplayers told Deniz about their plans, and even wanted Deniz to participate in them, and Deniz never really tried to stop them. He was a coward. He was running after them, but then he chickened out and ran away. The homphobes broke Romans knee and almost ruined his figure skating career. At first Roman knew nothing about Deniz's part in the assault, but when he knew, he never really had a hard time forgiving him. But, I read in an article that the actor, Dennis Grabosch, said that he never would have forgiven such a thing. But, I have to say, thank you writers for Roman forgiving Deniz, otherwise, we would have missed out on one of the most beautiful love storys of this century.

Joscha is not happy with Kai.

Alles was Zählt have given us another great love story where there was a bit of violence. Joscha Degen (Carlo Degen) was closetered football player that even got married to a woman to hide his homosexuality. But when he met the hot doctor Kai Seebach (Alexander Gier) on his wedding night, there was no turning back. But when they shared a cozy moment in the bushes, and Joschas team mates showed up, he reacted irrationally and pushed Kai into the bushes. Thank gods that Deniz showed up and talked some sence to Roman by telling him not to be such a pusch over and not letting others pay for his assholeness, and Joscha apologized to Kai. Kai in his hand, ended the thing between them, because of how Joscha treated him. A perfectly logical reaction. But of course, he couldn't resist Joscha and eventually gave in. And they lives happily ever after.

Larias. Not always friends.

Craig and John Paul.

There have also been some smacking and pushing between Larias and McDean. That is Lari Väänänän (Ronny Roslöf) and Elias Vikstedt (Petteri Paavola) and John Paul McQueen (James Sutton) and Craig Dean (Guy Burnet). In both cases passion won against anger and the couples were united. And this made me start thinking. I am not saying that these kind of stereotypichal scenarios are just in gay relationships. I am fully aware of that abuse are present in straight relationships in soaps to, even though I think it is more common that there is more common with a little bit of violence in the beginning af relationships between men, in the denial state. Maybe it's about testosteone and male stereotypes. Violence is present in both same sex and straight relationships in both soaps and real life, and people stay with their partners after abuse in real life to. And it is important to show this in soap operas to bring awareness of violence and help people deal with it, and maybe even seek help. Hollyoaks is actually very good at directing to help lines when showing these storylines. But, because of the ordinariness of at least a little bit of violence in gay relationships in soap operas there is some kind of message that it's ok with a little bit of violence. Expect a little bit of abuse, but after that everything is fine. But I get that it has to some drama to the storylines, and even I have confessed that a lot of my favourite storylines actually have som violence in them (see above), but it really would be nice to see a nice helathy gay relationship with no violence, no infidelity and no fucking brain tumour, or shooting maniac, or a collapsing building, or strange deadly virus, just happiness, love and lots of snogging. Would that be too uninteresting to watch?

DeRo

Roman and Deniz before all the pain starts.

The day before yesterday I watched the end of the DeRo storyline. And I cried my eyes out. I knew Roman was going to die, but Oh The Pain! It has been an on-and-off story lined by pain and angst alltogether, but oh so beautiful!

Deniz and Roman on the ping pong table.

Deniz Öztürk stepped into the series Alles Was Zählt in episode 230 and Roman Wild, the ice skater, was attracted right away. He even said he had found what he was looking for. But, of course, Deniz was straight, dated Nina, and had no interest in Roman. Except that he was a bit starstruck by the fact that he was a World Cup medalist. But a joke kiss later, and the ball was rolling. After some struggeling Deniz eventually gave in (after some gay-bashing) and he and Roman started dating. Obsticles they had to come over was a homophobic turkish father (Deniz's), sex-shyness and an jealous ex girlfriend (Nina). These were the happy days when everything was knew and wonderful.

The awful time when Deniz was dating Vanessa.

But then something awful happened. Vanessa happened. I really love the character of Vanessa Steinkamp! She is fun, smart, kind and extremely beautiful. But when she and Deniz developed feelings for each other and started dating behind Roman's back I really hated her! Really really. While watching those awful episodes I was stabbing the air with a pen. And I didn't think I ever was going to come over the contempt I was feeling for her. But I started loving her again. She is really cool. But some modelling-careering and jealousy later, Deniz and Vanessa broke up. And Deniz and Roman started sleeping together again. Yay! But wonderful is short and they started detesting eachother again. But awful is also short and a period of on-and-off feelings started a this was a fun period. They started ice-skating and modelling together and had sort of a fake relationship online directed by the Steinkamp centre.

Filming for the video-blog.

This was also a period of denial and lot's of struggling with feelings for them both before they eentually ended up in the shower for the most epical sex scene in the soap opera history ever, I would argue.

The epic shower scene.

And this is one of this couples strengths. Their enormous passion, steamy hot scenes and great interaction. There are lot of soap gay couples that have great interaction, but this is the couple that stands out in terms of sexiness. Alles Was Zählt is not afraid of showing some skin, neither in terms of straight or gay couples. But as for me, the DeRo sex scenes are the best with no competition.

Deniz and Roman in the qualification for the Gay games.

After some denial and struggling again, the couple at last was official! Oh joy! And the started ice skating together for rea this time and was going to compete in the Gay games. But Roman was getting old and worn and had to do some doping to keep up with the young and virile Deniz. And the ice skating career ended as quickly as it began, unfortunately. I would have liked to see more, because pair skating with to men proved to be one of the most beautiful things ever to be seen. If you ask me.

Happy times for Deniz and Roman.

What follows next is happy times for Deniz and Roman. Even though thy had to struggle a lot to keep it together fincially with unemployment, distance relationship and stuff, I think they have never been so happy together. They were so in love and happy, even though outer circumstances was not ideal. But happy times, lot's of kisses and everything was fine. Until Marc showed up.

Roman and Marc.

Marc was the ex boyfriend Roman never really could get over. It didn't end well and when Marc suddenly showed up and wanted Roman back, Roman couldn't resist. So, first Deniz with Vanessa and now Roman with Marc. Deniz interrupted them of course and everything fell apart. Again. Once more there were lot's of hurt feelings and destructive behaviour which ended in Deniz sleeping with another guy and got the AIDS fright and had to take PEP. And Roman was there for him. It is amazing to see how they always were there for eachother, despite what had happened between them. They always had a special bond between them, even though they were hurt and officially were not together anymore.

On Ben's and Isabelle's wedding.

But of course, they worked it out again. On Ben's and Isabelle's wedding they realized what was imported for them and that was eachother. Some kissing on the dancefloor and cheering by Vanessa, Ingo and Annette followed and Deniz officially had forgiven Roman. Another memorable sex scene follows where Roman carries Deniz over his shoulder! Yes, little Roman carries big Deniz! Wonderful!

But after this, it is really quite boring. They couple are back together and happy, but we don't really get much from them. At this stage of the relationship we get a quite classical gay storyline in a soap opera. At least how they used to be. Back in the days, and still some times, the couple gets to kiss, or hug, once but then never again. It's like they are being censored. And I hate that. I have been together with my bf for more than 4.5 years and we still kiss, really. Stop censoring gay relationships and let them kiss like everyone else! And unfortunately, it is only going down from here. No kissing and at last, Deniz is unfaithful to Roman again! He sleeps with his father's girlfriend Jessica while being really drunk and when Roman finds out, there is nothing left for him. Once more, the couple breaks up and this time it really seems like it will last. But. Roman gets ill. Awful.

Roman, Deniz and the tumour.

Roman gets and non-operable brain tumour and is prepairing himself to die. When Deniz finds out he just won't accept Roman going through this alone and is there for him. Once more, the couple shows how much they mean to eachother. Even though they are not together anyome, Deniz just can't leave Roman in this. And slowly Roman is letting Deniz getting close again and soon once more they have become a couple. They realize how much they love eachother and don't want to waste more time by not being together. In this situation you can expect lots of kissing but no. I think they share one kiss on the mouth, at least that the viewers are invited to see. The last forty episodes are filled with agony and pain and is not really pleasureable to watch. It is even painful to watch them. The last two episodes with Roman still being alive is an exeption. Deniz and Roman spend a day at the beach and has lots of fun. Even I smiled a bit through the tears while watching them.

Deniz, dead Roman and Isabelle.

After Roman dies in episode 1267 there is no happiness left. But the acting from Igor Dolgatschev who plays Deniz is realy brilliant. Him and Dennis Grabosch has a really amazing interaction that just two people who like eachother very much in real life can have. So I think that part of the pain Igor show us here, is letting Dennis go. Letting a person go that you have been working very close to for years hurts. Especially when you are good friends and have a special bond. OK, I don't know Igor and Dennis, but I think that these pictures proves that I am right. And this proves it I think.

 

Igor Dolgatschev and Dennis Grabosch.

And I really hate killing characters you like off. But I don't know how to do anything else in this case. It would just be unbearable if Deniz and Roman would have been breaking up and that Roman left Essen and for us to know that Roman is out there somewhere, without Deniz. On the other hand, if that was the case, we could at least hope for a return and a reunion. Now we know that that is never going to happen. But even though, I really hate that they had to kill Roman off, it at least is some kind of consolation to know that Roman died with Deniz loving him, and that he is always in his heart. Deniz even once told Joscha that one his lifes great love was a man and that they would probably still be together if he wouldn't hav died. Oh Deniz, how much we would have liked that. The only hope we have for a reunion is if Deniz is hoverng between life and death and Roman appears to him, just as he did to Annette when she died. In my fantasy Deniz of course survives and returns to life knowing what is important to him and stops dating meaningless girls as Melanie and Letizia. Preferably Deniz would start dating another man, but if not, at least an interesting woman. I really don't care for Melanie (or Letizia) at all. Stop wasting your time Deniz!

So Igor and Dennis, thank you so much for giving us Deniz and Roman. This beautiful love story is all because of you. There is and will be nothing like it. I know I will cry my eyes out because of you many more times.

To prioritize

Stendan in Dublin.

I've just finished the Stendan storyline from Hollyoaks and it was an awful ending. Even though I knew what was going to happen (Brendan get's prisoned for life) I was crying my eyes out. It was utterly awful! I really hope there will be a better ending eventually. I mean, som day Kieron Richardson (Ste) has to leave the series or if the series will be cancelled, they might maybe bring Brendan Brady (Emmet J. Scanlan) back? Just for an episode o two (he's got a lot on, rightly, because he is absolutely brilliant) so he and Ste can leave together? I for one is hoping for that at least. I mean the more Emmet J. Scanlan/Brendan Brady we get, the better!

So this leaves me with the post Stendan blues. What to do know? What am I going to watch? And I really need to prioritize. I mean, I don't have endless amounts of time watching gay storylines with a full time job and all, and no one is paying me for watching soap operas so I have to prioritize. I am currently watching the ongoing storylines of Johnny Carter in Eastenders, Elias, Lari, Miska and Kalle in Salatut Elämät, Will and Sonny in Days of our lives even though I am behind in the Johnny storyline generally and in the WilSon storyline especially. And I am actually even watching the Olli storyline from Verbotene Liebe even though we're on a break since I haven't watching Olli since Christian left about for the last time about a year ago. But I am watching them all.

Deniz and Roman.

And I also have the DeRo storyline from Alles Was Zählt to finish, which I have actually just taken up again. And I also have some more Hollyoaks to watch. I have a bit of McCarter (John Paul and Doug), John Paul and Danny, McHay (John Paul and Ste), George and Vincent and also some Kris Fischer and Ravi to watch, even though I think all of them is not complete. And I really love Hollyoaks so I definitely will be watching one or two of those storylines soon. And if there will be some more Ringo action in Unter Uns I will be watching that to.

Noah and Luke from As The World Turns

But I am also very eager to start watching anything new as well. I am extra keen on watching the dutch Lucas and Edwin (Ludwin) story that I've gotten hold of thanks to readers (thank you so so much!), the Luke and Noah (Nuke) storyline from As The World Turns or maybe the Aaron and Jackson storyline from Emmerdale.

Adrian and Javier aka David and Fer.

And I am also very very very eager to watch Fervid again. Fer and David from spanish Física o Química are really my favourite couple and I really feel that I need to watch them again. I have cravings.

So what to prioritze? Any suggestions?

OTP

I have realized what OTP means. It's does not mean One True Pairing that you would think, it means Oh The Pain. Because all the couples I have as OTP's gives me lot of pain. If they are not splitted up by death (Fervid, DeRo), divorse/separation (Chrolli, McDean), jail (Stendan) they leave to soon (Cenny, Joschka, Chryed, Kish). And all they leave behind is Oh The Pain! Awful. Utterly awful.

Sextember

In a tumblr I use to check out, I think it was this one, the concept Sextmeber occured along ith this image:

I guess it's all from Shameless USA. I like the concept so I decided to make an own sextember tribute. But to find hot and steamy pictures from hot and steamy sex scenes between gays in soap operas was easier said than done. Gays usually don't get to have sex scenes. I guess the only ones that got to get some sex scenes worthy of the name are DeRo (Deniz and Roman ) and Chrolli (Christian and Oliver). And a little bit of Ringo with Yannick and Aaron maybe... But here is my version of Sextember!

 

It's nothing special really, just a small collage made i picCollage, and some of the photos are not actually sex scene photos, but some kind of foreplay or just snogging, but at least we have both WilSon (Will and Sonny, Joschka (Joscha and Kai, Chrolli, Yango (Ringo and Yannick), DeRo and Larias (Lari and Elias). And that is not bad. That is not bad at all...

Eine kleine DeRo revival

On tuesday, 26'th of Ausgust that is, episode 2000 of Alles Was Zählt will be aired. Because of that some of the actors have chosen has chosen som old scenes to watch and comment. A lot of laughter, "Oh how do I look"-comments and such stuff figured in that clip. Lot's of fun to watch if you are and AWZ-fan.

Igor Dolgaschew remembering Romans death.

But which clip did our Igor choose? Well he choose a quite grievous scene, that is when Roman died. Oh the pain. In the clip we get to see how Igor Dolgaschew is watching the scene, spellbound. And then he says something about how powerful the scene is and we can also see how he is sweating while watching it. Dearest Igor, you are so nice and by choosing this clip and letting us watch you watching it, you are letting us see how important and strong this story was for you, the series and the viewers. I can only guess that Dennis Grabosch is feeling the same. But by watching it I really realize how crappy my german is. I really don't understand that slurred and fast-speaking german. I have to exercise my german more often. And I also have to confess that I haven't watched this storyline to the end yet. I came into a period where there is almost no DeRo scenes (that takes the story forwards that is) worth mentioning in this period and I also don't want it to end so I am avoiding watching it a bit. Because I know that Roman will die and it can never be a sunset ending for DeRo in any way so I have been keeping it for a while... But now I guess I will have to continue the story. I adore DeRo so very much! There is some kind of perfection there that I cant really describe... So thank you Igor for sharing this with us! You can watch the clip here.

Transgender and cross dressing

Jared Leto as Rayon in Dallas Buyers Club.

Last weekend I saw the amazing Dallas Buyers Club. Jared Leto is really incredible and incredible cute as the HIV positive transgender Rayon. Well he should be because he got an Oscar for the part. Then it hit me that there is really almost no transgender or crossdressing in soaps anywhere. I can't recall any transgender or crossdressing in a swedish soap for instance. But there is some exceptions.

Well, there are some guest characters in both soaps and drama series both here and there, but regulars who are transgender or crossdressers in soaps are not really that common. In drama series there are some more like Sophia in Orange is the new Black for example, but that will be a post of it's own.

The first example of a transgender character in a daytime soap opera (that I know of) is the character Hayley Cropper in Coronation Street played by Julie Hesmondhalgh.

Hayley Cropper.

Hayley, who first appeared on screen in January 1998, is told to be the first permanent transgender character in the world of serialised drama. Way to go Julie! Hayley revealed quite early the she was a pre-operative male-to-female transgender woman who was originally called Harold on a date with her husband to be Roy Cropper. But it doesn't go as smooth as you might hope for Hayley. At first, Roy rejects her because he can't bear the truth (but then repents) and then she looses her job when her boss get to know the truth. But she will have some happy years with Roy and a couple of on and off foster children before she learns that she has cancer and takes her own life in November 2013. What a sad ending for such a nice, and important, character.

Jeffrey Carlson as Zoe in All My Children.

Another transgender character is the character of Zoe in the american ABC soap  All My Children. Zoe, who was played by Jeffrey Carlson, first appeared in August 2006 and last appeared in April 2007. A half a year was all we got from the americans. And that was the first, and as far as I know, only transgender in an american daytime soap. That is not enough I would say. And this seems to be a quite brief and not that deep storyline about a male international rock star who falls in love with a lesbian, comes out as a transgender, has some problems with her parents and then leaves for London. Why did yoy not develop that storyline ABC? But I can guess that the transgender story didn't appeal to the audience. But maybe I am wrong.

Victoria Atkin as Jason Costello.

Hollyoaks is a series that has had numerous gay characters through the years, and they have also had three characters worth mentioning here. We had Jason Costello, played by Victoria Atkin, who was a regular between August 2010 until December 2011. Jason was born as Jasmine and started up by becoming friends with Bart McQueen and pretends to be aboy without his family knowing. Jason and Bart has a fling, Bart thinks he has a gilrfriend, but Jason only wants to be a boyfriend. But to make a long story short, that contains some curing attempts from his mother, a suicide attempt, a serial killer as a grandfather and some jelousy from Bart when Jason dates another guy, Jason leaves for America to start over as Jasmine never existed. So that was an early end for that story as well. I for one, would have wanted to see a development in the relationship between Jason and Bart. But that is just me.

Blessing Chambers.

In February this year (2014) Blessing Chambers (Modupe Adeyeye) entered the Hollyaoks drama. Blessing worked as a glass collector in a strip club when one thong led to another and Dennis Savage was the reason she was sacked. Dennis then offers her somewhere to stay and attractions develops. Dennis can't cope with the fact that she is a transgender though, and there will be a knot on the thread (fnurra på tråden). Blessing kisses Finn O'Connor (that bastard! I wil tell you in another post) who later attacks her and then I don't know more what happend. I haven't seen all the episodes from this year yet because or swedish streaming service is a little behind. But I am very excited what the wrighters has for us!

Well, we have four transgender characters where two of them are from Hollyoaks. But what about transvestites and cross dressing? If you google 'transvestite soap opera' you find nothing! Just a little something about transgender characters. But I happen to know one. And this is also from Hollyoaks.

Kris Fisher.

In 2006 until 2010 we had Kris Fisher (Gerard McCarthy) and I love love love that character! Kris is, even today, the only permanent cross dressing character in an british soap. He is the only permanent cross dressing character in any soap as far as I knows! And he really was great. He was quirky, a bit vulgar, confident and just fabulous! And he was also kind and funny. And a little bit rude, Love him! Over the years we was in a relationships with both boys and girls, and he also had a brief polyamorous relationship with Ravi and Nancy. The actor, Gerard McCarthy once said that he thought that Kris wasn't trying to cross dress or to be a transvestite, he just had an own style. But I don't give a damn about labels, because I think that it is just what cross dressing and transvestitism is all about. To dress, feel and be just as you want. And Kris did that. And Gerard McCarthy was very praised for that. But he also was a bit criticized when his character wore LGBT campaign t-shirts. To that I can only say as the t-shirt: Some people are gay. Get over it!

Gerard McCarthy and Bronagh Waugh.

Unfortunately I couldn't find any pictures with Kris in a skirt. But I hope you enjoy this wonderful picture with the beautiful Bronagh Waugh as Cheryl Brady. Cute and cuter.

Was that all? Yes, unfortunately I think it was. Except for when Romanpretended to be Stella and wore her clothes in an ice skating competition with Deniz:

Deniz and Roman.

...and Janne dressed in womens clothes and presented himself as Jane just to be able to visit Iida in the eating disorders clinic:

Hemmo Karja as "Jane" Haukkala.

...but that doesn't really count. Even though they were very cute, both of them! But we need more transgender, transvestitism and cross dressing in soaps. Because it is more common than you think, and that's why it needs to be more visible. That's what I think!

If there are some more examples of transgenders, transvestites, cross dressers or others who fit under the T letter, please let me know! Leave a comment or send me an e-mail! I am reading them all.
Hugs and kisses!