Another Halo

There's just something about that song that fits so perfectly in a fanvid! Well I've never seen a straight one, but I guess they're perfect to. So thank you Beyoncé for this song!

Yes, I finally started watching Nuke! And I like it! Van Hansis who plays Luke are really cute. So, who are Nuke?

Van Hansis as Luke Snyder and Jake Silbermann as Noah Mayer.

Nuke actually made the first on screen gay kiss in an American daytie soap I read somewhere. You know, Steven Carrington and Luke Fuller never got to kiss in the 80's Dynasty. So the Americans had to wait until 2007 before it happened! So we have missed out a lot of male snogging through the years. What a shame! And also, the controversial storyline of As the World Turns also gave us the first ever gay supercouple in an American soap! They really are slow starters in the USA. And everywhere else...

Van Hansis.

So, Luke Snyder (Van Hansis) appeared on screen in 1995, and was then played by several child actors, then sorased (soap opera rapid age syndrome) a few times with other actors before Van Hansis took over the part in 2005. Somewhere between that and 2007 he also came out. But Van Hansis didn't until 2014, but that is another story.

Jake Silbermann.

In 2007 Jake also met Noah Mayer (Jake Silbermann), who he fell for almost imediately. But Noah dated Luke's annoying friend Maddie before also he came out and started a relationship with Luke. But Noah's father was like the most homophobic bad ass parent ever and shot Luke trying to kill him. But Luke survives and is in a wheelchair for a while before he was fit for fight again. And that's about how far I've come.

I've been told that Nuke is likeable in the beginning but that's there's a tendency towards dislike later in the storyline. Right now I enjoy it though. The storyline is quite interesting, the soap seems to be quite alright to be an American soap, the guys are cute and they have got good chemistry. I will come back to you about how I like it later. And please enjoy Halo the Nuke way.

Stinginess

Some channels and production companies are really stingy! I mean really stingy! I live in Sweden. I have told you before that swedish gay storylines doesn't realle exist right now. I know good english and ok german. But they are talking really fast in german soaps som if I watch it with no subtitles I will miss at least half of the dialogue. I know some phrases in other languages as finnish (ei saa peittää) and spanish (una grande cerveza por favor). But that's all. And I am a faghag. I love gay storylines, especially from soaps. And some channels and production companies are making it really hard for me! Out there, there are lots and lots of generous people who subtitle and upload gay storylines and they are really really appreciated and popular! People in all ages all around the world are watching these storylines on Youtube, Dailymotion, Vimeo etc.

There are some really evil channels, like RTL for example. RTL has got three soap operas with ongoing or previous gay storylines, like Ringos from Unter Uns. But as soon that they learn that anyone, I mean anyone, has uploaded something from their shows, they ensure it will be deleted. And I will tell why that is so stupid!

I have been a faghag for a long time. I loved the soryline of Steven Carrington and Luke Fuller when I was a kid and watched Dynasty on it's rerun on the afternoons on swedish TV4. One day I decided to see if there were any clips with Steven and Luke on Youtube. The short, but cute storyline was on Youtube and I watched it. I decided to see the clips with Jack and Doug from Dawsons Creek as well and Youtube suggested a new clip that looked interesting, and then a new clip, and a new clip... Well you get the point. Then I saw there was a clip called "The sweetest gay love story ever" which I just had to watch! And that was a fanvid of Fer and David from Física o Química. And oh my godd I was in love! In two days I formally plowed as much of the storyline that I found on Dailymotion and Youtube. And I have been a Fervid shipper ever since (I've learned a new word). I found Gaydaytime and rewatched the Fervid storyline from time to time. I watched a lot of fanvids with lots of gay couples from both movies and series and picked up more and more storylines. Actually when I watched some Fervid clips again about a year later I was recommended the Larias storyline and also plowed that in a couple of days.

So I realized I had to see some more storylines. I watched Kish, Chrolli, Chryed etc and got to know quite a few soaps both american, british and german. Before I got my hands of these storylines I had never heard of Alles Was Zählt, Gute Zeiten, Schlechte Zeiten and Hollyoaks. Now I love them all! When I was in Germany in February, of course I had to watch both Alles Was Zählt and Gute Zeiten, Schlechte Zeiten in real time. A couple of weeks ago I realized I can watch Hollyoaks on SVT Play and it really was a haleluja moment!

What I want to say is that all publicity is good publicity even if it's in a faghags forum. The channels are really shooting theirselfs in the foot by reporting, deleting and banning! Isn't it a good thing that people all around the world hear about the soaps and have the chance to watch it? If I would move to Germany I would both watch Alles Was Zählt, Gute Zeiten, Schlechte Zeiten and Unter Uns. That's three shows I would never had heard about if it wasn't for all the fans that are subtitling them. Just look at Salatut Elämät from Finland, where MissFinlandia88 has the permission to subtitle and put out on Youtube the scenes with Lari and Elias. It is massively popular all around the world. So please RTL and all the other channels, stop be so stingy! You will just loose ou on it. This is an honest advice from me to you. You will win more viewers and more respect in that way. Stop making it so hard for us to see Lenny and Carsten, Deniz and Roman, Joscha and Kai and Ringo and Aaron. That is really so cheap of you to try to keep them for your own.

The first big crush

One day in August 2012 when I was youtubing Luke Fuller/Stephen Carrington (Dynasty)  and Jack and Doug from Dawsons Creek I stumbled over a fan video that left didn't leave me untouched.

I absolutely fell in love with Fer and David from Física o Química! And the story contains everything a gay storyline in a TV series should contain: denial, an alibi girlfriend, secret snogging, blackmailing, unsupporting parents, jealousy, on-and-off, and in the end even death.

Física o Química means physics and chemistry and take place in a high school somewhere in Spain. The series was broadcasted in 2008-2011 on Antena 3 and had 7 seasons. The character Fernando "Fer" Redondo (Javier Calvo) was in it from the start while the character David Ferrán (Adrian Rodriguez) turned up in the third season. The Fer/Fer and David storyline with english subtitles is to be found here.

Fer and David in a classical scene fron season 3.

To make a long story short, Fer comes out quite early and in the third season he falls in love with David, the football playing friend of Julio. There is a bumpy road until they finally get together, and then of course, the on-and-off begins. And here there is no happy ending. As written before, Fer dies, and all the FoQ fans around the world was really pissed about that. But even though, it's worth watching. The series is great in general and the love story between Fer and David is really cute. And it is quite remarkable that a catholic country produces such a naturally told gay story. Javier Calvo, Adrian Rodriguez and Sergio Mur who played the bisexual teacher Jorge even got an award from the gay magazine Shangay for best TV performance.

Fer and David in the Buzz-scene. 

The characters are easy to like, especially Fer, and the actors Javier Calvo and Adrian Rodriguez have a really good interaction which makes sparks. My favourite season is the third where the couple first got together, and after that the sixth season is my favourite where they got together the second time. It is quite obvious that I like the part where the couple is heading against getting together the most, in most storylines. The following picture is from seasom six and is one of my favourite scenes just after David interupts a wedding and steals one of the grooms.

Fer and David before it's starts raining. Season 6.

 
It's really a shame the series was cancelled in the seventh season. And that Fer dies. I for one would have liked more Fervid. I happens at least once a year that I rewatch the Fervid storyline and it will always be my first and biggest crush. If you haven't seen it yet, just do it! Bara gör't!

Why can't they just be happy?

Storylines with gay couples in soap operas often seem to contain a lot of unhappiness. Love stories in common contains a lot of unhappiness in soaps of course, even the straight ones, because of the drama. But it beats me that gay love stories have a lot of ingredients in common. It often starts with one parted love and a lot of denial from one of the characters and not seldom a little bit of abuse between the lovers. And when they finally becomes a real couple at least one of them just have to be unfaithful, there is a lot of on-and-off and then of course, the death comes. Don't get me wrong, straight people also dies in soaps, but for me it kind of hurts more when the gay person, who never really was happy because of the ingredients mentioned above, has to die. And leaves devastated partner behind. Just as i Brokeback mountain. There are exceptions of course, but there has been a lot of dead gays:

Fer Rodondo played by Javier Calvo.

Fernando "Fer" Redondo - Física o Química (ESP)

Well of course Fer has to die! They'd only just decided to cancel the show beacause of decreasing audience and they had just two more episodes two film when they decided to kill Fer. He is getting shot by a bullied student who thinks it's a good idea to bring a gun to school and lock the doors a little bit. In the same episode that him and David finally made up and got back together realising what is inportant in life - that is: love. They just wouldn't go for a happy ending. No, that is mainstream. Upsetting! Poor David has to live without the love of his life, but hey, shit happens when you are gay!

Roman Wild played by Dennis Grabosch.

Roman Wild - Alles was zählt (DE)

Deniz and Roman. Another on-and-off couple. Hey but of course, they are gay. A wonderful figure skater who dies from a brain tumor on the ice in the arms of his great love. Beatiful but unnecessary. Beautiful figure skaters doesn't deserve to die, not even in soap operas. Romans and Deniz's story contains a lot of beautiful, hot, happy and funny scenes, but there still is a lot of cheating and hurting. And we want Roman to live and love and skate! Bloody brain tumor. 

Doug Carter played by P J Brennan.

Doug Carter - Hollyaoks (GB)

This is one of these annoying deaths when the person in question is in a big disaster (bomb explosion) but survives, then survives another disaster (collapsing building) and then dies anyway. Unnötig as they would say in Germany! Oh and I forgot to tell you, Doug and his big love Ste was just about to leave for a new start and a new life. We can't let that happen can we?

Edwin Bouwhuis played by Raynor Arkenbout.

Edwin Bouwhuis - Goede tijden, slechte tijden (NL)

Edwin could be really happy with his love Lucas (after some on-and-off, of course) when Edwin catches some kind of deadly virus and dies, just as him and Lucas reunites. Enough said!

Luke Fuller played by Billy Campbell.

Luke Fuller - Dynasty (USA)

Ok, now whe are talking the 1980's in USA. It is not surprising that this storyline is really chaste and miss a lot of juicy details. I can't even recall that the couple of Steven Carrington and Luke Fuller gets to share a kiss. There were a lot closing doors in the most exciting moments this time. I think they finally got to hug each other in Moldavia when they decided to move in together. But of course, there is a terrorist attack in the middle of Amandas wedding and Luke gets shot in the head and dies. So much for that happiness. But a plus for a gay storyline in a 1980's soap. They were rare.

As devastating as it would have been to see Fer, Roman, Doug, Edwin and Luke to leave the series without their great loves, I rather would have wanted them to live. A good gay is a gay who is alive, even if it's off screen. Unnecessary deaths are just that - unnecessary. Därmed basta!